Happy November 1st! When I lived in Westminster with my fiance today is the day I would take down the Halloween decorations and put up the Christmas Decorations. It was a blast and I miss it. I Look forward to a day when I can do that again! It has been 1 year and 2 weeks since she threw me out. In that time I have gone from a quivering mass to a TV-Film major at a University who works almost full time in a TV studio. I have gone from wishing I was dead to excited about the next day to come.
I still miss her and our life terribly. I can't think about it too much or I will spiral into depression. I am glad I left like a gentleman. I hope she is okay.
The sad part, maybe the sick part (mentally) is that if she gave me a chance I would really have to fight not to go back. I loved that life that much. But I wouldn't go back. You can't go back. I have to keep looking forward. I am excited about my life. But I had when I so look forward to something, in this case getting my own place again, that I kind of miss the day I am in. I will work to focus myself on the day.
Yes, that is a lot and pretty deep but I am still putting up a girl. My hypocrisy only goes so far.
Patrick C. Van Slyke. I hope to write horror. I hope people will read it.